Set Adrift

Sunday, February 19, 2006

Anything but math.

I'm so trying to do anything (eating, taking pictures, being on the computer) other than what I should be doing..algebra homework.

WTF? Any tutors out there?


I never thought i'd be saying (typing) those words again. Someone remind me why i'm going back to school, cuz i'm really beginning to wonder. I hope it's not just a waste of time and money and that I can really follow through with it this time, as opposed to when I was 18 and fresh out of high school. I just have so many doubts, like how's it all going to work out when I have to start taking classes during the day or when I have to start doing my internship/field training..I don't know if my job is going to be willing to work with me on my schedule, and if not can I afford to work part time or even at a different job for less pay? These are the things i'm struggling with, and when/if I do get my degree can I make a decent living doing social work with just a bachelors degree? I keep telling myself it's not about the money, it's about doing something that I really want to do and I do think that that's really important. It's why i'm even doing all of this at the age of 32. I'm tired of going to work everyday and, while it may be easy and I make good money for what I do, it's so not rewarding or challenging. Helping people that need help is my passion and I think social work will be both of those things, rewarding and challenging. I take pride in the fact that i'm a single mom making it on my own with no assistance from anyone (governement or my ex), but i'm also a little resentful (jealous?) of people (single moms) I know who are on the system and barely/not working and they have pretty much school paid for plus assitance for everything else. Am I going to have to go this route later on? Maybe. Do I want to? No, I really don't think I do. I guess i'll cross those bridges when I get to them. I'm just gonna do my best for now. Look how cute my kitty is..she doesn't want me to do homework either.

Alright, let me get back to it...if anyone has any advice/comments/suggestions to my school dilemma i'd love to hear em.

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